It’s been 6 months since I become a mother of two. It’s been 6 months of adjusting…..I’m not going to lie. There are so many things people don’t tell you about having a child and there are just as many things they don’t tell you about having your second child…..
Like the fact your first born ages years and loses virtually every trace of “baby” over night….
And changing the older ones diaper now feels like you are wiping a grown mans behind….
And that you and your husband will quickly learn the true meaning of “divide and conquer”…..
And instead of looking forward to your baby’s next milestone, you quietly wish for each phase to last a little longer, because the first time it went by far too fast.
Decker is starting to try to crawl….she has been for several weeks now. She is a happy, happy little girl. Possibly the happiest baby I have ever known. Her face lights up no matter who talks to her. She has one of those smiles that you can feel…..like how you know someone is watching you without actually seeing them……that’s how her smile works. She shoots invisible laser beams of happiness from her cheeks (that’s how I imagine it anyway) and the next thing you know you’ve been slapped across the face with happy.
It’s nice. It’s the best, actually.
She doesn’t sleep…..at least not well, anyway. I think Dyce inherited Brad’s sleeping habits. He’s a hard sleeper. Decker, on the other hand, still wakes every few hours so it’s been a long (LLLOOONNNNGGGG) 6 months for this mama. I will say this though, it’s been 6 months of never sleeping more than 3 consecutive hours, but at least I get to soak up every quiet moment I can with my sweet girl. SO worth it. I honestly don’t mind it that much. I’ve never required much sleep in general and I might go so far as to say I’m a pretty terrible sleeper….. often times I am already awake at night when she cries.
Like mother, like daughter?
We just started giving her some foods, but so far just zucchini and pears. She hates pears and makes the most incredible faces! Breastfeeding has been harder this time around in regards to my supply. It started to dip when we moved (oh yea, we moved to Union County…..forgot to mention that I guess) and I was no longer able to nurse her at lunch. I still nurse quite a bit but have had to supplement one bottle a day with formula. I mourned that for some reason and really beat myself up over it.
Why do we do that to ourselves? Mothers?
There’s nothing wrong with formula….and I know this but it’s hard to feel like what I am doing is good enough sometimes, you know? I’m starting to understand that being a good mom means learning how to forgive yourself for the mistakes that only you keep track of. Easier said than done.
Recently, after telling someone it had been a year and a half since I last cut my hair, they said,
Oh, you must not work out of the home.
After assuring her I did, and seeing how genuinely surprised she was, I pondered for a few minutes what was meant by that comment. I came to the conclusion that she probably thought that no self-respecting career woman would go that long without some attention to her personal appearance.
Rather than becoming paranoid or offended by her comment, I realized this is just the result of being a busy mom with two kids. Right? I work Monday through Friday so by the time Saturday rolls around I would rather spend time with my family than sitting in a salon chair.
Two kids = Hot Mess
Truth be told we embrace the craziness that exists around us. Is it frustrating? Yes, at times. Some days I am doing good to shovel food in everyone’s mouth before it gets cold or the dog eats it….other days I think the washing machine should be thoroughly cleaned, so I scrub the small crevices with an old tooth brush.
As I type this post I realize how all over the place I am….does this even make sense? I promised to record more and this is my (albeit poor) attempt.
Mothers are neurotic. My husband is undoubtedly reminded of this on a daily basis.
He’s also reminded how badly I want more.
I’ll take another shot of crazy….straight to the face and down the hatch.
We’re having too much fun to stop now…..plus, we still have some pretty killer “D” names left!
p.s. i posted this video on facebook a while back….but it’s worth watching!